Memory 41

[wildnight]

Born from the Maelstrom. (significant negative) (ref: HTK 117, 298, KoG 6-7)

Description: Sieh's explanation:

But one day the Maelstrom made something that did not die. Indeed, this thing was remarkably like Itself—wild, churning, eternal, ever changing. Yet this new thing was ordered enough to think, and feel, and dedicate itself to its own survival. In token of which, the first thing it did was get the hells away from the Maelstrom.

But this new creature faced a terrible dilemma, because away from the Maelstrom there was nothing. No people, no places, no spaces, no darkness, no dimension, no EXISTENCE.

A bit much for even a god to endure. So this being—whom we shall call Nahadoth because that is a pretty name, and whom we shall label male for the sake of convenience if not completeness—promptly set out to create an existence, which he did by going mad and tearing himself apart.

This was remarkably effective. And thus Nahadoth found himself accompanied by a formless immensity of separate substance. Purpose and structure began to cohere around it simply as a side effect of the mass's presence, but only so much of that could occur spontaneously. Much like the Maelstrom, it churned and howled and thundered; unlike the Maelstrom, it was not in any way alive.

It was, however, the earliest form of the universe and the gods' realm that envelops it. This was a wonder—but Nahadoth likely did not notice, because he was a gibbering lunatic.

That is Sieh's account, and he wasn't around then. It's also told in a very particular style which I think suggests a lot of simplification and some artistic embellishment. However, I think the broad strokes are there. Naha is born from the Maelstrom into a complete void, in struggling for survival goes insane and tears himself (for continuity's sake) to pieces to create substance and a sort of proto-universe Is generally insane. End scene. The only real departure is that I will roll with Naha being aware of it, at least on some level.

This is only the early era of escaping the Maelstrom and creating the earliest form of the universe. The years between that and Tempa's birth (except they're not years because there's nothing to define a year by and linear time hasn't really been sorted out yet without Tempa) are not included.

Oh, also Naha's own version:

"At the dawn of reality I was myself. There was nothing and no one else to influence me—only the Maelstrom that had given birth to me, and it did not care. I tore open my flesh and spilled out the substance of what became your realm: matter and energy and my own cold, black blood. I devoured my mind and reveled in the novelty of pain."

So there we go. Aware on a level.

Notes:
+ +100 crazy; she was doing so well too.
+Appreciation for substance and existence, and company.
+This won't be as bad as when Naha gets her memories of the rest of her early existance, but she will probably be more unstable and needier after she takes this memory.
+Don't nobody understand loneliness like Naha understands loneliness. Luckily it's not her antithesis.
+This will actually be pretty interesting coming on the heels of Naha's recent confidence/power in relation to Tempa. I don't think it will turn that around. In one way, it will confirm that she really can survive without him! In another way, it will be a reminder of what she really is without anyone else to project on her, and that's not somewhere she wants to be again.
+Yeah, definitely some neediness. Sorry, CR.
+Also probably a small bonus in malleability. Uh. Well. We'll see how that goes.

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