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Memory 11
Being trapped in mortal flesh by Shahar I and Itempas. (ref: HTK 23, 265-266, KoG 363-364) significant negative
Description:I'm going to mostly let this one speak for itself.
Yeine's summary:
Sieh remembers Shahar using the Stone of Earth (this turned the tide of the fighting that had come before it):
Yeine's vision of Tempa forcing Naha into a mortal body:
And there you go. Memory.
Notes:
-This is one of Naha's worst memories, probably in the top three. I thought about lumping it together with the Gods' War in general, but I felt like it had its own emotional impact that deserved to be addressed separately. And also, the whole breakdown of the Three events seem like it's best broken down into bite-sized pieces.
-Hate Tempa. Not that Naha hasn't had a good deal of hate for Tempa before this, but it's been mixed before. This memory is pretty much all pain and betrayal and crazy, and it goes squarely at Tempa's feet. Hate. So much hate.
-On a related Hate note, physical bodies kind of suck. Or at least, there's a pretty overwhelming negative association with them that comes from being violently forced to assume one. For those who didn't read the quoted passages, it was a very brutal experience and both a "physical" and emotional violation.
-Also, an aspect of the forced into a physical body hate—it's sadly not explored much in the text (though it is implied), but subtext and word of god has Nahadoth identifying as female during the Gods' War and a substantial period of time leading up to it. Tempa pretty much decided to male Naha male because he prefers it, and over the two thousand years that followed that Naha came to (or seemed to come to) identify predominantly as male. However, this is an important part of the greater betrayal, I think. I've talked about this on plurk, so I won't belabor it here unless someone really wants to hear more. TL;DR: Naha is going to be hostile to the idea of being male again, at least for a while.
-Naha's frame of reference for pain is insane.
-TOTALLY UNSAFE FOR SHARING. This memory includes stuff human minds were not meant to see, or can't see. It is a brainbreaker. (Naha will probably make Tempa take it.)
Form: Sugar glazed popcorn.
Uses Left: 8 of 10
Description:I'm going to mostly let this one speak for itself.
Yeine's summary:
The one who matters killed one of the ones who didn't and cast the other into a hellish prison. The walls of this prison were blood and bone; the barred windows were eyes; the punishments included sleep and pain and hunger and all the other incessant demands of mortal flesh. Then this creature, trapped in his tangible vessel, was given to the Arameri for safekeeping, along with three of his godly children. After the horror of incarnation, what difference could mere slavery make?
Sieh remembers Shahar using the Stone of Earth (this turned the tide of the fighting that had come before it):
And of course I thought back to the worst days of my life. Shahar had not been the first to use the Stone. I had sensed a godling’s controlling hand first, sending searing power—the power of life and death itself—in a terrible wave across the battlefield of earth. Dozens of my siblings had fallen in that attack. It had nearly caught me, too. That had been the first warning that the tide was turning. Until then, the taste of triumph had been thick in my mouth. Who had that godling been? One of Tempa’s loyalists; he’d had his own, same as Nahadoth. Whoever it was had died trying to wield the power of Enefa.
Then Shahar had gotten the Stone, and she hadn’t bothered attacking mere godlings. She went straight for Nahadoth, whom she hated most because he had taken Itempas from her. I remembered watching him fall. I had screamed and wept and known then that it was my fault. All of it.
Yeine's vision of Tempa forcing Naha into a mortal body:
A shining form (that my mind would not see) stood over a shapeless black mass (that my mind could not see) and plunged hands into the mass again and again. Not tearing it apart. Pummeling—pounding—brutalizing it into shape. The mass screamed, struggling desperately, but the shining hands held no mercy. They plunged again and hauled out arms. They crushed formless black until it became legs. They thrust into the middle and dragged out a torso, hand up to the wrist in its abdomen, gripping to impose a spine. And last was torn forth a head, barely human and bald, unrecognizable. Its mouth was open and shrieking, its eyes mad with agony beyond any mortal endurance. But of course, this was not a mortal.
This is what you want, snarls the shining one, his voice savage, but these are not words and I do not hear them. It is knowledge; it is in my head. This abomination that she created. You would choose her over me? Then take her "gift"—take it—take it and never forget that you—chose—this—
The shining one is weeping, I notice, even as he commits this violation.
And somewhere inside me someone was screaming, but it was not me, although I was screaming, too. And neither of us could be heard over the screams of the new-made creature on the ground, whose suffering had only begun—
And there you go. Memory.
Notes:
-This is one of Naha's worst memories, probably in the top three. I thought about lumping it together with the Gods' War in general, but I felt like it had its own emotional impact that deserved to be addressed separately. And also, the whole breakdown of the Three events seem like it's best broken down into bite-sized pieces.
-Hate Tempa. Not that Naha hasn't had a good deal of hate for Tempa before this, but it's been mixed before. This memory is pretty much all pain and betrayal and crazy, and it goes squarely at Tempa's feet. Hate. So much hate.
-On a related Hate note, physical bodies kind of suck. Or at least, there's a pretty overwhelming negative association with them that comes from being violently forced to assume one. For those who didn't read the quoted passages, it was a very brutal experience and both a "physical" and emotional violation.
-Also, an aspect of the forced into a physical body hate—it's sadly not explored much in the text (though it is implied), but subtext and word of god has Nahadoth identifying as female during the Gods' War and a substantial period of time leading up to it. Tempa pretty much decided to male Naha male because he prefers it, and over the two thousand years that followed that Naha came to (or seemed to come to) identify predominantly as male. However, this is an important part of the greater betrayal, I think. I've talked about this on plurk, so I won't belabor it here unless someone really wants to hear more. TL;DR: Naha is going to be hostile to the idea of being male again, at least for a while.
-Naha's frame of reference for pain is insane.
-TOTALLY UNSAFE FOR SHARING. This memory includes stuff human minds were not meant to see, or can't see. It is a brainbreaker. (Naha will probably make Tempa take it.)
Form: Sugar glazed popcorn.
Uses Left: 8 of 10